Easter Break Babble

Easter – Good. Time off from work – Better. Time spent away from home – BEST!

I really needed the time at my parents’ house this past weekend. We left on Thursday afternoon and didn’t return home until Sunday evening. Friday was wonderfully carefree. Nothing that needed to be done. Nothing to do but chat with my dad and do whatever I felt like (which was mostly nothing). It felt REALLY good to just BE for a day.

Stitching done – NONE. Boring, but it’s the truth. I thoroughly enjoyed my feeling of release from all commitments while I was away and I capitalized on it by not doing a single thing that I had intended on the stitching front.

Reading done – NONE. Yep, that’s right. I didn’t do my reading assignment for Dr. Steve. I have my reasons and I have my excuses, but mostly, I just plain didn’t do it. I have to stop apologizing for everything I do! I do far too much of that. “Ooops, I’m sorry I just stepped in between the two of you while you were having a conversation right outside of my office and I needed to go somewhere.” “Oh, someone did something not very nice to you? I’m sorry.” “I was busy working on something else and didn’t have time to look at that thing you just thrust in front of me an hour or so ago. I’m sorry.” NO! Why do I have to be sorry? I don’t. I’m just afraid of hurting people’s feelings or not meeting their expectations. The people-pleaser in me needs to take a bit of a backseat right now because I need to think about ME.

Can you see I’m developing a dose of anger at myself to toss into the mix? I’m a nutcase. Sorry Dr. Steve. No, wait, there I go again. I am NOT SORRY. It’s his job. He chooses to help people like me. Darn it!

Speaking of Dr. Steve, I went to see him again tonight. I didn’t work on my autobiography over the break like I had intended to, but I did pound out another 7+ pages today, so I feel like I can stop now. It’s not finished, but then neither is my life. 🙂