Yes, it would seem that The Blahs have settled in and made themselves quite at home in my psyche. As I’m sure many of you have already deduced from my lack of posting lately, I’m not feeling so hot mentally. Much of it is work-related, but I’m not getting any enjoyment from stitching lately, either. You know you’re in bad shape when stitching seems like a chore. 🙁
On the work front, I’m being not-so-gently nudged out of my current position and have had to find a spot for myself. This should prove to be interesting, but I’m kind of riding the fence in between the two right now. I’m running out of work to do in my current position and they are not ready for me to move into my new one yet.
I’m bored. I don’t deal well with being bored. And it’s a pervasive boredom that has made its way into my personal life, as well. I’m bored with my stitching, and yet, I want to keep working through my WIPs, so what ends up happening is that I don’t stitch at all. I’m guessing that I might have to allow myself a small new start or two in order to get my mojo back.
It’s amazing how extensive depression can become; weaving its way through your entire life. I’ve even had thoughts about closing One Star’s Light. It’s that bad, but I know better than to make big decisions like that in my current state of mental health. Never make big decisions when you’re not feeling yourself. You may come to regret them later.
In other news, Terry is working on finishing our basement so that we’ll have more room in the house. Once finished, I’ll finally be able to move the exercise equipment into the basement, along with the computers, freeing up more room for my crafts, plus allowing us to have a separate music room. Terry has a good chunk of the drywall up now and the bathroom will be ready for tile flooring later this week.
We decided that each of us is having too much trouble buying presents for the other for Christmas, so we decided to get ourselves a combined gift instead. We hit an online Black Friday sale at Dick’s Sporting Goods and bought ourselves a combination pool table, with air hocky and table tennis capabilities. It will be perfect for the basement, but we’ll need to make room for it for Christmas so that we can play, even if its not finished down there.
So, that’s about it for me. That’s what I’m up to. Oh, I started with a new psychiatrist whom I absolutely adore. We’re working on changing the meds, which is going to take a while. I’m working my way up on a new drug called Lamictal that should help with the depression, but it will take 7 weeks or more to reach theraputic levels. After that, we’ll work me off of the Abilify and Zyprexa that the other doctor had me on. This new doc and I see exactly eye-to-eye and I am really grateful for that. She’s definitely worth the money it costs to see a doctor who is out of network.
I hope to be feeling a bit better before Christmas gets here. At this point, I haven’t even put a lick of decorations up. But, we are going to buy a new artificial tree tomorrow. Maybe once that’s up, I’ll feel more into the holiday season. I hope all of you are doing well and getting into the joy of the holidays!
Finish Fall Dragon and Send Back to Outi